elise ffa:
Hi all,
Long time lurker but finally joined in order to post. I'm a female FA/feeder & occasional gainer having intentionally gained some weight on three separate occasions during my lifetime - including currently!
Isn't it weird how that switch turns on in your mind and suddenly you find yourself stuffing yourself with this, that, and the other, wriggling into tight clothes, and fondling yourself...
Not to mention suddenly looking so tiny and frustratingly slim in the mirror when a couple of weeks ago your self-image was completely different. It is remarkable, truly.
Anyway! I know that typically during these periods of time when I am gaining weight deliberately, I struggle to control my sexual urges more than usual. When not gaining I typically consume FA related material for at least 30 mins a day anyway, although it has to be said that it has been markedly more over the past couple of months, and I would put that down to having suffered a difficult bereavement recently and wanting to distract myself from negative feelings.
Subsequently, I am worried that I am using masturbation and sexual fat-related thoughts as an emotional crutch more and more often. Really, I'm just wondering if anyone has had any similar experiences and how they managed to limit their intake.
It's not affecting my sex life negatively, am still very happy with my beautiful partner and if anything feel more confident at the moment.
I do want to be able to enjoy my kink, it's a big part of who I am and something that I've only just really started to accept properly. That acceptance has caused me to desire participation in the community more and I think it's this issue, that our kink is so related to my sense of self and an evolving identity that makes it so hard for me to separate the need for healthy, affirmative social behaviour with a possibly destructive need to seek out anything that jiggles and spend the evening drooling. Tumblr - it's a blessing and a curse, basically.
I'd just really like to be able to free up some more time to do other things.
Any advice would be much appreciated!
Also, apologies if I posted this in the wrong category!
Hi all,
Long time lurker but finally joined in order to post. I'm a female FA/feeder & occasional gainer having intentionally gained some weight on three separate occasions during my lifetime - including currently!
Isn't it weird how that switch turns on in your mind and suddenly you find yourself stuffing yourself with this, that, and the other, wriggling into tight clothes, and fondling yourself...
Not to mention suddenly looking so tiny and frustratingly slim in the mirror when a couple of weeks ago your self-image was completely different. It is remarkable, truly.
Anyway! I know that typically during these periods of time when I am gaining weight deliberately, I struggle to control my sexual urges more than usual. When not gaining I typically consume FA related material for at least 30 mins a day anyway, although it has to be said that it has been markedly more over the past couple of months, and I would put that down to having suffered a difficult bereavement recently and wanting to distract myself from negative feelings.
Subsequently, I am worried that I am using masturbation and sexual fat-related thoughts as an emotional crutch more and more often. Really, I'm just wondering if anyone has had any similar experiences and how they managed to limit their intake.
It's not affecting my sex life negatively, am still very happy with my beautiful partner and if anything feel more confident at the moment.
I do want to be able to enjoy my kink, it's a big part of who I am and something that I've only just really started to accept properly. That acceptance has caused me to desire participation in the community more and I think it's this issue, that our kink is so related to my sense of self and an evolving identity that makes it so hard for me to separate the need for healthy, affirmative social behaviour with a possibly destructive need to seek out anything that jiggles and spend the evening drooling. Tumblr - it's a blessing and a curse, basically.
I'd just really like to be able to free up some more time to do other things.
Any advice would be much appreciated!
Also, apologies if I posted this in the wrong category!
I probably won't be any help. I will agree with you. I have always been a fat admirer for BBW and SSBBW. Recently I have started to appreciate BHM and find nothing more exciting than watching a video of fat people fucking.
I have always been big. I am currently 240 pounds and have decided to eat what I want. If I get bigger, that will be great.
Thinking about the BBW and SSBBW I have enjoyed, and me being bigger, makes me horny - and I have been masturbating more frequently when I am not having sex with a partner.
Feeling all the soft flesh just makes me hornier.
If you like it, enjoy it! I know I do. 😎
7 years
